I’m back. I took an unplanned
break from blogging last week after Monday’s post.
I’ve had writer’s block lately. I
have vague notions of what I’d like to write about, but no concrete ideas that
lead to actual words on the computer screen.
And I’ve been feeling stuck in
general.
I don’t know for sure what is
driving this feeling of inertia. Larry is doing fine. Chase Bird is doing fine.
The newspaper work is going fine. I’ve gotten some very positive feedback on it
recently. I’ve been reading some good books. I’ve been knitting.
But I can’t find anything to focus
on, to get excited about. I don’t have the energy or the motivation to set
goals, to make plans. I’m just stuck.
As familiar as I am with
depression, I don’t always recognize its different manifestations. I don’t know
if I’m just going through a tough time or if the depression is getting worse as
it sometimes does.
I’m sleeping a lot. I’m eating
more than I should. I’m not moving as much as I should.
But I’m not totally in the dumps.
I’m not completely hopeless. I’m not having panic attacks.
There are steps I can take to try
to lift myself out of this. I can get on a regular schedule. I can exercise. I
can eat better. I can meditate. I can do things I enjoy. I can listen to music.
I can act even if I don’t feel like it.
I will try to get serious about those
things this week.
Even if I am depressed, I am
enjoying my new hobby of knitting. I started a scarf project on Friday night. I
used my original purple project to practice the knit and purl stitches and to
learn to cast off. But I wanted to start on a “clean” piece of work with
different yarn.
Chase Bird is supervising. I love
the expression on his little face. He clearly disapproves of my having control
of the yarn.
I’ve made some progress over the
weekend. Reading took up most of my time over the past couple of days, though.
Oh Tina I LOVE LOVE your scarf it is such a pretty colour and love the texture of the yarn. Your skills are so impressive so fast, you are a natural knitter.I have been knitting hats like crazy lately because it is so busy and when I sit it keeps me from overloading on what is to be done. I like that. Chase Bird does look focused too:)
ReplyDeleteYou have been through a lot keep knitting and reading you have a good life. HUGS HUGS B
i love that you have some one looking out for you - what a cutie. meow!! have a great week!
ReplyDeletebig big hugs. ( :
it's a pretty yarn! laughed at chase bird! being conscious that you're in a 'funk', if you want to call it that, is a good thing. i hope you can turn it around before it goes into anything deeper.
ReplyDeleteIt's funny how parts of your life are stuck in idle. As for blog ideas? It's a challenge when your blog is on one topic. I find your blog both interesting and informative. I've learned much from your posts. Keep on knitting. However, knitting won't help me!
ReplyDeleteYou can blame this weather for some of it! It isn't much for motivation, is it? Your knitting is a soothing alternative.
ReplyDeleteI think it's amazing how much content you put out week in and week out...you may just have needed a break. The well runs dry from time to time.
ReplyDeleteCongrats on the knitting! It's an important part of my life and a very calming activity. Back in the day, when I had cats, they showed much less restraint than Chase Bird -- they were constantly attacking the yarn.
oohhhhh tina, i hope you get your mojo back!!! seems you are doing all the right things and keeping very busy!!!
ReplyDeletethe scarf looks awesome, i LOVE the yarn!!
ps...i finished my hat ;)
I go through long periods of time of not being able to write--at least not the way I'd like to. Recently I had a short period of intense writing on a new story and then...well, haven't written on it since then.
ReplyDeleteI sure have my ups and downs when it comes to the blog. Even having the photos doesn't help sometimes. I hope you are feeling better soon. I like your choice of yarn. That looks like Homespun that I've used in the past though I'm a crocheter not a knitter. Chase Bird surely thinks that that yarn is meant for him.
ReplyDeleteOh, I love those colors, Tina.....I hope your plan for this week will help you feel better!
ReplyDeleteYou're inspiring me to pick up my crochet again...my main problem with my cats and my crochet is that they like to lie down on it. :-/
ReplyDeleteSometimes you just need a break from writing. The muse will return!