I’m back. I took an unplanned break from blogging last week after Monday’s post.
I’ve had writer’s block lately. I have vague notions of what I’d like to write about, but no concrete ideas that lead to actual words on the computer screen.
And I’ve been feeling stuck in general.
I don’t know for sure what is driving this feeling of inertia. Larry is doing fine. Chase Bird is doing fine. The newspaper work is going fine. I’ve gotten some very positive feedback on it recently. I’ve been reading some good books. I’ve been knitting.
But I can’t find anything to focus on, to get excited about. I don’t have the energy or the motivation to set goals, to make plans. I’m just stuck.
As familiar as I am with depression, I don’t always recognize its different manifestations. I don’t know if I’m just going through a tough time or if the depression is getting worse as it sometimes does.
I’m sleeping a lot. I’m eating more than I should. I’m not moving as much as I should.
But I’m not totally in the dumps. I’m not completely hopeless. I’m not having panic attacks.
There are steps I can take to try to lift myself out of this. I can get on a regular schedule. I can exercise. I can eat better. I can meditate. I can do things I enjoy. I can listen to music. I can act even if I don’t feel like it.
I will try to get serious about those things this week.
Even if I am depressed, I am enjoying my new hobby of knitting. I started a scarf project on Friday night. I used my original purple project to practice the knit and purl stitches and to learn to cast off. But I wanted to start on a “clean” piece of work with different yarn.
Chase Bird is supervising. I love the expression on his little face. He clearly disapproves of my having control of the yarn.
I’ve made some progress over the weekend. Reading took up most of my time over the past couple of days, though.