Monday, August 11, 2014

Writer’s block and feeling stuck

I’m back. I took an unplanned break from blogging last week after Monday’s post.

I’ve had writer’s block lately. I have vague notions of what I’d like to write about, but no concrete ideas that lead to actual words on the computer screen.

And I’ve been feeling stuck in general.

I don’t know for sure what is driving this feeling of inertia. Larry is doing fine. Chase Bird is doing fine. The newspaper work is going fine. I’ve gotten some very positive feedback on it recently. I’ve been reading some good books. I’ve been knitting.

But I can’t find anything to focus on, to get excited about. I don’t have the energy or the motivation to set goals, to make plans. I’m just stuck.

As familiar as I am with depression, I don’t always recognize its different manifestations. I don’t know if I’m just going through a tough time or if the depression is getting worse as it sometimes does.
I’m sleeping a lot. I’m eating more than I should. I’m not moving as much as I should.
But I’m not totally in the dumps. I’m not completely hopeless. I’m not having panic attacks.

There are steps I can take to try to lift myself out of this. I can get on a regular schedule. I can exercise. I can eat better. I can meditate. I can do things I enjoy. I can listen to music. I can act even if I don’t feel like it.
I will try to get serious about those things this week.

Even if I am depressed, I am enjoying my new hobby of knitting. I started a scarf project on Friday night. I used my original purple project to practice the knit and purl stitches and to learn to cast off. But I wanted to start on a “clean” piece of work with different yarn.



Chase Bird is supervising. I love the expression on his little face. He clearly disapproves of my having control of the yarn.



I’ve made some progress over the weekend. Reading took up most of my time over the past couple of days, though.





11 comments:

  1. Oh Tina I LOVE LOVE your scarf it is such a pretty colour and love the texture of the yarn. Your skills are so impressive so fast, you are a natural knitter.I have been knitting hats like crazy lately because it is so busy and when I sit it keeps me from overloading on what is to be done. I like that. Chase Bird does look focused too:)
    You have been through a lot keep knitting and reading you have a good life. HUGS HUGS B

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  2. i love that you have some one looking out for you - what a cutie. meow!! have a great week!
    big big hugs. ( :

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  3. it's a pretty yarn! laughed at chase bird! being conscious that you're in a 'funk', if you want to call it that, is a good thing. i hope you can turn it around before it goes into anything deeper.

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  4. It's funny how parts of your life are stuck in idle. As for blog ideas? It's a challenge when your blog is on one topic. I find your blog both interesting and informative. I've learned much from your posts. Keep on knitting. However, knitting won't help me!

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  5. You can blame this weather for some of it! It isn't much for motivation, is it? Your knitting is a soothing alternative.

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  6. I think it's amazing how much content you put out week in and week out...you may just have needed a break. The well runs dry from time to time.

    Congrats on the knitting! It's an important part of my life and a very calming activity. Back in the day, when I had cats, they showed much less restraint than Chase Bird -- they were constantly attacking the yarn.

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  7. oohhhhh tina, i hope you get your mojo back!!! seems you are doing all the right things and keeping very busy!!!

    the scarf looks awesome, i LOVE the yarn!!

    ps...i finished my hat ;)

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  8. I go through long periods of time of not being able to write--at least not the way I'd like to. Recently I had a short period of intense writing on a new story and then...well, haven't written on it since then.

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  9. I sure have my ups and downs when it comes to the blog. Even having the photos doesn't help sometimes. I hope you are feeling better soon. I like your choice of yarn. That looks like Homespun that I've used in the past though I'm a crocheter not a knitter. Chase Bird surely thinks that that yarn is meant for him.

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  10. Oh, I love those colors, Tina.....I hope your plan for this week will help you feel better!

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  11. You're inspiring me to pick up my crochet again...my main problem with my cats and my crochet is that they like to lie down on it. :-/

    Sometimes you just need a break from writing. The muse will return!

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