Thursday, December 29, 2011

I am going to do it

I have decided to ask my psychiatrist to refer me to the doctor in the practice who does cognitive behavioral therapy. I want to try the exposure response prevention therapy.
I have written about my doubts over whether or not I needed such therapy, and I’ve gotten some really helpful comments on this blog.
I have also learned from those of you who write wonderful blogs about your own experiences with OCD. It seems that ERP therapy is helping many of you, and I want to experience some of that success.
I have been mulling over it, and it became clear to me this evening that I need the therapy.
I have been having periods of time lately when I have been a checking fiend.
For example, I stare at the lamps in my office at work to make sure they are “really” off until I think I must surely be going crazy.
And I know it’s the OCD! I have been doing things like this for most of my life. And I still feel like I’m going crazy.
Also, I have a nagging sense that OCD has negatively affected my life and is still affecting it in ways I don’t even realize.
I have reached a point in my life where I don’t want to be held back by OCD, anxiety or depression anymore. I want to better manage these conditions so that I accomplish what I am supposed to accomplish while I’m on this earth.
I may sound overly dramatic, but I am as serious as I’ve ever been about getting better and living life as fully as I can.
So, I see my doctor on Jan. 16, and I will get the ball rolling. In the meantime, I’ll get through the episodes as best I can.


  1. Congrats for having the courage to take such a bold step!!! ERP is not easy - believe me! But the results are worth it and at some point - after doing it for a bit you reach a threshold where you start to get perspective - and then it's not as bad. Hugs to you.

  2. I can't tell you how happy I am to hear you will be trying ERP Therapy. I've said it many times, but I'll say it again. This therapy literally saved my son's life. I wish you the courage and strength to fight your OCD head on.......I am cheering for you!

  3. Thank you both for your support. It helps!

  4. Thank you both for your support. It helps!

  5. How absolutely wonderful! You are not being overly dramatic. Living with and fighting OCD are life changing events. Looking forward to hearing about your experiences. God Bless!

  6. Dear Tina,

    I am happy for you and I hope everything works out.

    When you said that OCD has: "negatively affected my life and is still affecting it in ways I don’t even realize." ....

    I hear ya. Until I started CBT (Cognitive Behavior Therapy) over a year ago, I really had no idea of the many ways OCD was keeping me down. I could see the obvious ways but there was so much more that was OCD that I would never have thought of as OCD. Therapy has helped me TONS.

    Happy New Year,


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