One of the tasks assigned in Jonathan Grayson’s Freedom from Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder: A Personalized Recovery Program for Living with Uncertainty is to create a cost-benefit analysis of why we are choosing to go through treatment for OCD versus not going through treatment.
This exercise has been valuable for me. I have been experiencing a lot of anxiety and discomfort from just reading about what I will have to do to get better.
Plus I have had the anxiety that goes with exposing myself to some of my fears and preventing myself from ritualizing in response.
It has been helpful to me to pull out my cost-benefit analysis and remind myself why I’m doing this.
Basically the cost-benefit analysis gets you to examine the advantages and disadvantages of going through treatment and not going through treatment.
- I won’t have the near-constant anxiety of OCD.
- I will learn to live with uncertainty.
- I will have more time to do the things I’m meant to do, like write.
- I won’t have to spend time doing rituals.
- I’ll feel better about myself.
- I’ll be stronger emotionally.
- It will take time.
- It will be difficult.
- It will make me uncomfortable.
- If I take it to formal therapy, I’ll have to continue therapy and continue that cost.
- It might not work.
- I won’t have to take the time to do the work.
- I won’t have to go through the difficulty of trying to change.
- I won’t be disappointed if it doesn’t work.
- I’ll spend time doing the rituals.
- I’ll have less time to do the things I want and need to do.
- I’ll have the anxiety of OCD.
- I’ll struggle with living with uncertainty.