I haven’t been very active in the blogging world lately, and I apologize for that. I miss you!
I thought I was on the road to recovery, but the cough and other symptoms came back with a vengeance. I just haven’t felt very good.
But life goes on, doesn’t it?
I am waiting to hear some news that would create a change in my life.
I applied for a job that would actually be for less hours than I work now, and would still allow me time for my editing business. And the new job would pay significantly more.
I had my interview Wednesday (thank goodness I didn’t have a coughing fit at the same time). And now I’m waiting.
And I’m not good at waiting.
It’s all wrapped up with OCD and my craving for certainty. I want to know right now that everything is going to work out, that everyone is going to be OK, that the change I want to happen is going to happen.
But that’s not how life works, is it?
I’ve been trying some mindfulness techniques to help me deal with my anxiety. All I have is right now, I remind myself. I focus my senses on what’s around me right now, the sounds especially.
I also try to accept what is. I have done all I can in the matter. The rest is out of my control, and I have to accept what the outcome will be.
And I focus on what’s most important to me regardless of anything else that goes on in my life: Larry, Chase Bird, my spiritual life, writing, service to the world.
My techniques to help with the waiting and uncertainty aren’t perfect, but they are helping me to be able to deal with the anxiety so much better than I used to. I love that there are things I can do to help myself in that way.
Do you have a hard time waiting for news, good or bad?