Friday, April 6, 2012

Good Friday thoughts

Tonight I attended the Good Friday service at my church. It was a quiet and meditative time, and I carried away some thoughts I’d like to share with you.
I respect people of all faiths and religions, as well as those who have no religion at all. I believe we are all connected by the same Power.
I can only speak from the belief system that I have chosen to follow, and then, even more specifically, from my understanding of that belief system.
My faith is far from perfect. Sometimes it’s feeble. My commitment to my belief system has been spotty and unreliable.
I have many issues with organized religion stemming from my religious scrupulosity, one of the manifestations of my obsessive-compulsive disorder.
I am a doubter, a wanderer. I sometimes look at others who seem to have an unwavering faith and wish I could be like them.
I am in no position to teach anyone else about how to live a good and faithful life.
I still come before the cross.
I come before the cross, sometimes in despair, sometimes with my unending desires to know how to live a good and meaningful life, and sometimes because there is nowhere else to go.
At tonight’s service, we had a time of meditation on the cross, and anyone who wished to do so could go and kneel before the cross to pray and meditate.
Before the cross tonight, I didn’t pray much. I just tried to absorb the moment and think about what the minister had said in prayer: that we learn from Jesus’ carrying the cross how to carry our crosses.
To each of you, wherever you are in life, God’s grace and peace and blessings.

12 comments:

  1. Thank you, Tina. Peace and blessings to you too. There is no where else for me to go but before the cross. I totally get that. Mental illness has made that so very clear to me. My faith sure isn't perfect either. Thankfully, we don't have to worry about that. God took care of it for us. I hope you have a wonderful Easter.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. You're right. We don't have to worry about it. That's what grace is all about. Thank you for reminding me!

      Delete
  2. I am so happy blogs like yours are out here for us..makes me feel not so alone. Lovely post.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Thank you, Krystal Lynn--Blogging and connecting with others has made me realize that I'm not alone.

      Delete
  3. Awesome post, AND I learned a new term reading it. Thank you and God Bless.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Rebecca, Thank you! I hope you and your family have a wonderful Easter!

      Delete
  4. Sometimes it's best to just reflect. You write beautifully. Happy Easter.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Thank you so much, Grace. And Happy Easter to you.

      Delete
  5. HAPPY EASTER TINA!!!!
    That's a great post.

    ReplyDelete

Note: Only a member of this blog may post a comment.