The most-read post I’ve written for this blog is one called “Read, reread, again and again: Reading OCD.”
When I check the list of search terms used to find my blog, I often find listed something to do with reading.
I never knew until I wrote that post that so many people with OCD suffer from the compulsion of rereading the words on a page until if feels “right” to move on to the next page.
I used to believe that I was the only person in the world who had that problem.
Reading OCD is one of those OCD symptoms that come and go with me. Sometimes I read unimpeded by any sense that I haven’t read each word “perfectly.”
Other times, it’s a struggle to read, so I just avoid it.
On Goodreads, I set as a goal to read 26 books this year. I set a low goal on purpose, so if my reading OCD kicked in, I wouldn’t totally blow a high goal.
So far, I’ve read 12 books. According to Goodreads, I’m three books behind schedule.
That disappoints me, to be behind schedule. I’ve still got enough “good student” in me to want to measure up, even to an arbitrary goal I set on an online social media site.
More than reaching that goal, though, is the desire to free myself from the reading OCD.
What works best for me is to plow through the pages. I don’t allow myself to go back and reread.
Something I do that helps me to be able to do that is to tell myself that I can go back and reread later if I need to or want to. I delay doing the compulsion of rereading.
After a while of doing this, the anxiety lessens and I start enjoying myself. And I don’t reread.
Reading is one of the chief pleasures of my life. I’m not going to allow anything to keep me from enjoying it.
For your reading pleasure, here’s a list of books that I’ve read this year so far. All of them have been good reads, and I encourage you to check out any that interest you:
Flash and Bones. By Kathy Reichs.
Killing Floor. By Lee Child.
Lessons from the Monk I Married. By Katherine Jenkins.
The Power of Habit: Why We Do What We Do in Life and Business. By Charles Duhigg.
Quiet: The Power of Introverts in a World That Can’t Stop Talking. By Susan Cain.
Bones Are Forever. By Kathy Reichs.
Ransom River. By Meg Gardiner.
Reaching: A Memoir. By Grace Peterson.
Proof of Heaven. By Eban Alexander.
Tripwire. By Lee Child.
Poison Flower. By Thomas Perry.
The Kill Artist. By Daniel Silva.
Reading is my favorite leisure-time, solitary activity. What’s yours?