Thursday, July 19, 2012

A hard week and a harder weekend to come

This has been a hard week, and I don’t have a lot to write about today.
There’s nothing terrible going on. Just too many demands, too many obligations, enough things gone wrong to make me feel like I cannot cope.
I’ve been here before, and I’ll be here again. What is interesting about this time is that I’m actually stopping to think every now and then: how am I handling this time of stress?
I handling it so far by trying to do a little at a time, trying not to worry about things I can’t control, and trying to make the best of what I am going to be doing this weekend even when I don’t want to do it.
I’m not always successful at doing those things.
There’s one bright light at the end of the weekend that I’m looking forward to, a dinner with a friend that I haven’t seen since she moved away over a year ago.
Other than that, it’s put one foot in front of the other and get through it.
I wish I could sail through with no worries and no depression and no anxiety. I wish I was at the place where I could just focus on the now for longer than a few minutes at a time.

How do handle times like this?

22 comments:

  1. Just remember how amazing you are, and how far you're coming! you know its going to be tough. but you accepted it..and are doing your best to take it step by step. I'll be thinking of you this week sending you positive vibes :)

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  2. I think you are an incredibly strong woman Tina as you have already made up your mind to get through it all, so you will!
    I like the idea of taking one step at the time. In that way, no matter how high the mountain is that you have to climb, you will get there anyway.
    I wish you a lot of strength and success and a lovely time with your friend!

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    1. Klaaske, Thank you! Your words mean a lot to me.

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  3. Sorry you are having a hard week. I hope things get better soon and you can rest and recover.

    Usually, when I go through times like this, I do the best I can and try to tell myself not to expect perfection in anything. I also tell myself that it's okay and to be expected if the OCD and anxiety spike. I then look forward to a day of rest.

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    1. Elizabeth, that is a good attitude to take--to not expect perfection. Too often, I try to keep up the same standards when I'm not in a position to. Thanks for the reminder! :-)

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  4. I am going through a similar bout right now. Unfortunately, I tend to victimize myself and get frustrated at the world . . . but you can't escape life, right? The best thing I can do is concentrate on my work for the day, instead of thinking about the entirety of my responsibilities.

    I really hope things settle down for you soon. And I'm so glad you have a visit with your friend waiting on the other side.

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    1. Thank you! That is a good way to handle it--to focus on what I have to do for the day, not all of my responsibilities.

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  5. Hi Tina :)
    Bless your heart. I know exactly what you write about in this post. One thing that I've done, in more recent times, is remind myself that: I have been worse, and I have recovered from that worse of time. So, this too shall pass.
    Even though I encourage myself with that reminder -it is still hard for me.
    With your honesty, we can all be praying for this foggy-moment that seems to be laying over you will lift. God hears our prayers. God loves us, and cares for us -- and that alone can brak a smile on face.

    Be encouraged!
    Blessings & Prayers to you and for you, Deanna

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    1. You're right, Deanna, this will pass and I've gotten through worse. Thank you for your prayers and thoughts!

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  6. I'm sorry your week is so stressful. I hope you have such an enjoyable weekend that it makes up for it. Give your sweet cats some snuggles and go for a run. I bet you'll feel at least a little better for it!

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    1. Lisa, you have good ideas--snuggles with cats and physical exercise can help a lot of things!

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  7. Honestly, Tina, I handle it just the way you are! One foot in front of the other. That really is all you can do. I think it's awesome that you are becoming aware of your stress level throughout the day. I believe that is really the beginning of getting it under control. It's a slow awareness of what is going on in your head. Pretty soon, you'll be realizing it a lot quicker and fight it faster. You ARE doing it! Hang in there. I'll pray that your week goes better.

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  8. Tough times. Prayer, exercise, doing something fun/productive, distractions...honestly, for me sometimes the only thing that gets me through it is remembering (which can be challenging) that these feelings don't last. Hang in there!

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  9. I have trouble with the grey times, too, when nothing is terrible, but I'm still struggling. Actually, I kind of feel there right now. One thing I like to do is prioritize. Things I really need to do go on my list of to-dos, but I try to keep more time to read or do something else "lazy" without feeling too guilty. Even if I don't get everything done, I try to be pleased about what I did get done.

    I hope you feel better soon.

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    1. Thank you, Abigail, and I'm sorry you're going through a hard time too.

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  10. I have been way behind reading everyone's blogs. Sometimes you just need to step away. That was me last weekend.

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    1. Jen, I am finding that to be true, for sure.

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  11. Hi Tina, as my psychiatrist says to me, "Just take one day at a time, don't beat yourself up." It's easier only thinking about his statement, than actually doing it. I try every day not to beat myself up, but I have learnt to take one day at a time, because if I don't, I "burn out", in other words become stressed, anxious, depressed, and nervous 24/7, nearing the edge of a nervous breakdown again. So I've learnt to take on only what I can handle, one thing, plan ahead what I have to do, plan ahead my leisure time. I make time for things that are important, and allow then for me. Every day I do this, but the thoughts do always come creeping in, Am I doing the right thing? How do I look? Am I acceptable? I guess all I can say is take time out for yourself too, because if you don't you'll quickly burn out. Hope this helped you Tina. Susan :)

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