|Step by step|
Today I told someone that my OCD seems better.
Until then, I had kept the hope to myself.
But I’ll say it a bit stronger here: my OCD is better.
OCD is tricky. It can wax and wane.
During especially stressful times, it can grow stronger, leading to more obsessive thoughts, less ability to control the compulsions.
Other times, it grows stronger for no clear reason.
Then the symptoms ebb away, interfering less with the rest of my life.
There is nothing that I can point to as the reason for the current improvement. I think it’s probably a combination of things:
*A focus on preventing myself from following through on the desire to do a compulsion as I work on Exposure and Response Prevention on my own
*Good therapy earlier this year and last year
*A dedication to being mindful
*A growing realization that worrying doesn’t do me or anyone else any good
This time the improvement feels like a step up. I’ve improved in the past, but I wasn’t so aware of working on my OCD and keeping it at bay as much as possible.
I’m more deliberate about it now.
It's not that I don't still have obsessions and do compulsions. But the symptoms are bothering me less and less. I'm better than I've been in a long time.
I’m very grateful. No need to analyze that too much, is there?
I’m not an expert on OCD. I’m just someone who has had the disorder since I was a child. I realize that OCD can seem very weird, and there are some misconceptions about it. Is there anything about OCD that you’d like to ask me?